I’ve come back from the brink of desolation. Having grown up in post WW2 England, whilst I had loving parents, I was never shown in a way I understood what it’s like to be truly loved. I felt isolated, lonely, excluded, unimportant and unlovable from my early childhood all the way up into my early 30ties. Naturally, I searched for love, validation and appreciation in all the wrong places. Two marriages, countless relationships and affairs later, after having moved to three different continents and switched lots of jobs and career paths, I was brought to my knees. I was at the end of my tether.
The silent despair continued for almost 30 years. In each relationship I thought there would be more passion. In each marriage I thought there would be more hope. In each career path I thought I would give me the answer I had been looking for. The problem was I worked so hard at fixing myself in an effort to create a connection. But I wasn’t connected to myself. No matter if other people felt connected to me, I couldn't feel connected to them. That’s when I realized I had to change the perception I had of my world.
Dis-eases that have incapacitated me at times. When it came to healing myself from arthritis, iritis, depression and various skin and nerve sensitivities, traditional medicine failed. These chronic conditions have overshadowed years of of my life. Luckily I’ve diligently studied and practiced alternative health modalities that have returned me to a pain-free body. Along the way, I’ve also learned how to manage any stress that comes my way and be at peace in my body.
Changing my perception has changed my life. Once I understood that all my challenges stemmed from the perception I had of my childhood and how I saw the characters act out in my film of life, I had the key to come through those dark times to realize that only I had the power to make the changes I wanted.